Tripping Along The Journey

I have a massage I'm running off to in a few minutes.  And just before I took a moment to sit down at my computer to check for any last minute emails before leaving, I realized just how much I was running off to a massage in a few minutes. 

I actually ran this morning, and yet long after I went for my run, my head, the voices, the lists, the habit continued to run even though there was a stretch of 45 minutes where I sat down to watch last nights episode of Grey's Anatomy.  I was sitting, watching, doing nothing, and yet, the whole of me was running lists, sensations of pressure, and the anxious "oh... I have to get up and do something" mode.

So, I'm sitting here.  With intention.  With some long deep breaths.  To stop for a few minutes and slow it all down, turn it off, reconnect with conscious intention and approach my hour of healing massage with a restful mind.  I'm not beating myself up this time.  Its just a habit I trip over every now and again.  I lose track of the momentum building up around me, and let myself get whisked away and in the letting go, sometimes the noise that has been such a habitual friend gets trip on again. 

I am off to get a massage.  And rather then run off, I'm going to skip, stroll, dance my way there. 

Comments

[darlene]

enjoy :) i do the running lists thing too and really am trying to stop and just be ... easier said than done :) slowing down is good, xo

[Rebecca]

I so know how that is....to be unable to just sit and enjoy the moment because your mind is filled with this enormous 'things to do' list. I have spent an entire day sitting down and then popping up to do something that just 'popped' into my head - I am totally unable on days like that to just sit and watch something or read or even spend time on the computer without "Oh, I gotta do....NOW" and I'd pop up and be off and doing. Exhausting and somehow the list never remains done.

[Dawn]

Oh, I so enjoyed this post and the fact that we can ALL relate to it in the most fundamental of ways. I also enjoyed the post because I am a Massage Therapist and every time I hear of someone taking time for themselves and considering it healing it makes my heart smile. Thank you.