Soft and Gentle

I've been on a luscious creative wave for the last several days.  Ideas stirring, colors splashing, ways of doing things are evolving...  I even made a journal yesterday that is so delicious I can't bare to let it go.  I love that.

And yet, this morning I wake up down.  Frustrated.  Unsatisfied.  I don't know what it is that brought this on, but its as if all the mini "no" monsters in my head decided to sing their chorus at maximum volume.  When this happens, I tend to wander back and forth through the house.  Not really knowing where to land, or what to do next.  So I took a long bath.

I don't want to sit around indulging all these doubts and sensations of overwhelm.  It doesn't get me anywhere, and it doesn't change the pattern.  So as I sat here drinking my nourishing deep green nettle tea, I looked out at the gray sky and let its softness wash over me.  Letting it smooth out a few of my rougher edges this morning, I took my cue from the Goddess. 

I'm going softly into my day.  Being gentle and slow with myself.  Knowing that the voices of fear and negativity need their space as well.  Its part of the shifting I have set forth to do.  As my life gets bigger, there will be loud protestations from the peanut gallery.  They are being evicted after all.  Can you blame them?

*I took this photo of a car parked outside my home.  I love the idea of having a sticker like this facing everyone that drives behind them.  Imagine how lovely it would be if we had love messages projected out to the world while we drive around to our varied destinations.  Its a little dose of healing in the middle of a harried day. :)

Comments

[maddie]

"I'm going softly into my day...."

i LOVE that ~ i love how you create space
for the doubt to find it's way into
a 'yes' ~ you remind me that if often
try to impose my will on these moods ~
forcing them into a yes when they are not
ready...

the 'i love you' note completely inspired
me ~ i have decided to go about town
now with exactly this message and leave
them everywhere ~ on little stickers

YES i am

and i love YOU

you are a darling:)

[darlene]

"going softly into my day" ~ i need to do that more often ... beautiful inspiration you!!

i heart the 'i love you' sticker .. there should be so much more of those hanging around :)

[Stacy]

On the day I learned my mother had died, my best friend Dawn met me at our favorite lunch place to spend time with me. Afterwards, she drew on the back driver-side window of my car, "I love U," (the "love" was a heart--impossible to draw here) in lipstick.

It's been on my car, ever since (six months), and I swear, it will remain there for the duration.

I never realized how much it would warm me every time I see it. Nor did I realize that other people would engage me about it--but they do. I've had people at banks and other drive-through places say, "I love you, too!" or, "Awwww...thank you for loving me!"

I even had to have some body work done on that side of the car, and when I went to collect my car, the guy at the body shop said to me, "When I washed your car, I was going to wash that window, but decided that was a pretty important thing you have one it, so I washed around it."

Love is, after all, a magical thing, and a fabulous connector of people. :)