Mixed media original art by Elena Rego 2009 "Unleashed I"
I retweeted this quote last night:
"Do what you love. Know your own bone; gnaw at it, bury it, unearth it, and gnaw it still."
~Thoreau
This quote came to me on my little status stream just as I was sitting with this question of what does Unleashed look like. I mean, we are already three weeks into the new year and I'm looking around at my life and at myself wondering, "Is this Unleashed?" So this quote, as magical synchronicity would have it, shined a light on something that has been happening within me for the last month or two, and I'm going to try to process it out here as best I can, since its still bubbling to the surface.
As I begin to embark on this exploration of strategy and how to achieve the vision of my bigger life picture, there is a little voice bubbling up. Actually its not so much a fully formed voice yet as much as it is this inner prompting, or a nudge. And it comes up whenever I veer off course. And this occurrence is important to stay with because I'm not fully clear what the course is, but then again... I have always been. So I don't want to dismiss this, but rather dive deeper into this knowing. There is treasure here.
I know my 'bone'. I have always known my 'bone'. And all the distractions that got my attention either out of anxiety, fear, avoidance, selling myself short and whatever other reason there was, may have at times given me benefits, but it in no way honed me and my power in the area that I meant to shine in. Not by a long shot.
This sounds terribly vague doesn't it? I think what I am saying is that of late as these distractions come up, and some of them certainly worthy of looking at, when they come up, this inner prompting or nudge comes up, that urges my sights back to my vision, my purpose, my 'bone'. And the nudge is growing in intensity with each day, so much so that its mere presence has begun to fill in the details of this larger life picture I am embarking on and creating. And its informing me on where I need to turn.
I find myself internally saying no to choices that come my way that would take me in a direction I don't want to go in. And that 'no' is so much clearer then it has been in the past, when I would question, doubt, or jump in anyways. Again,its not that these choices are bad in anyway, but rather, they don't nourish the purity of this vision I'm carrying. And this... this feels potent. Like a refinement is taking place within me that is unfamiliar to me.
Its almost a paradox in a way, isn't it? That somehow refinement and strategy are integral to unleashing, and this stills me. And then I come back to this quote by Thoreau, "Do what you love. Know your bone; gnaw at it, bury it, unearth it, and gnaw it still." I feel that this is one of the alchemical formulas to my Unleashing, and it thrills me.
