
Its been quite a month in my world. I recieved an order for 25 of my hand made journals for a store in Big Bear, California. It was a wonderful opportunity and gave me much to do! I have spent the majority of my time making journals for the last 6 weeks. I delivered the journals to the store last weekend, and then returned to begin making journals again for a festival I will be vending at in a week.
I have caught myself feeling a bit surreal in this process. My creative endeavors are finding their places in the world, and connecting with souls that relate to the frequency my art holds. And I'm in the step by step process without really stepping back to see what it all may look like or mean in the grander scheme of things. I think about the fact that I still haven't replaced my banner on this blog, and that I don't have a proper website, or that my new etsy store hasn't been completely put up or announced even though the web address has begun to seep out into the world.
All these little details that fill in the gaps to a larger picture I still haven't taken the time to check out and actively design. Sure, I have notions, and ideas, and desires and dreams about what the larger picture will look like, but its so fluid right now.
And as I continue to swim in a sea of book binding, canvas arting and paper tearing, I have started to play with an entirely different medium of expression that I want to dive into! Its exciting really. And I find myself so grateful that I get to do this. I am living my life in exactly the way I want. And my only stressor is that there isn't enough time in the day for it all. All being the art, the massage, the cooking, the loving, the making out, the hanging out with friends, the resting and long slow bathing, the dancing, the painting, the journaling, the picture taking.... the cuddle time with Tucker and Chloe...
I just reread the above paragraph. "I am living my life in exactly the way I want." Thats not entirely true. There are details, snags that I hit. I don't like those, and they are always created by me. But the whole of my life is good. The snags that are my lessons are good, because they are part of my evolution, and they are the key to my complete freedom. I am so aware that I am on the verge of moving into a bigger version of my life. And I have also been aware of the anxiety that comes from stepping forward into the world and making myself available for more. I continue in my intention of remaining conscious of this and trying not to limit myself in an attempt to remain in my habitual safety.
Its been a good week. I have stepped further into my creative life and into my life as a Business Woman (this is a big big big thing for me). And now this week that approaches is bringing with it even more opportunities. So for today, I am taking it slow and gentle. Sitting on my cozy couch, writing and editing, sipping some ginger tea I just made, and letting the day flow. Just a moment of quiet before the slip stream of next weeks activities begin.
Here is a picture of my journals in their very own display case! It isn't all put together here, but this is the image I have. There is a sign on the top of the display case and an story board missing from this.
Isn't it exciting? :)