Taurus... earthy, fixed, sensual, slow, physical. Its an interesting energetic, because as I sit here reading about all the things that are happening astrologically with this Full Moon, I am brought back to what I have been practicing here now for a while: How does this Moon feel for me? Its never just that the moon is full and in a particular sign, but its what house it falls in for you, and what other transits are effecting the vibration of this moon. So the focus here can't be on giving you a definition of what you are suppose to be feeling, but rather to facilitate both yours and my connection to how the moon is effecting the personal inquiry that is called for.
Right now for me there are a few things up. I am seeing bounty creep into the day to day of my life. Sweet little reminders that the seeds that I have planted over the last two years, seeds that felt so arduous in the planting, have begun to reap fruit in a slow and and tentative manner. I am also deep in the excavation of my journey with planning. I'm facing, for the first time it seems, the reality that I have never really planned for much in my life. I haven't planned my life at all. Always letting the winds guide me, remaining open to whatever spontaneously came up, I find that now at the age of 38, there are very key elements to my life that are missing because I didn't plan for them.
In all this its the concrete day to day that seems to come up and reveal itself as important. Its interesting to observe, because I am really talking about the mundane day to day. Things like, consciously drinking my green tea in the morning and my soothing herbal tea at night so as not to disrupt my sleep. Rituals really. Almost as if since the bigger plan isn't set in place, the small detailed plans of each day want to be established so as to give me a deeper sense of security and rootedness. This needs to be sat with more...
The other awareness I am having is that there has always been a deeper resistance for me to plan, one that was deeper then the on the surface attitude, that I was a bohemian go with the flow kind of girl. That icky truth is that I didn't want to plan for something, commit to it and then miss out on something else that might come along. That and, I didn't want to be responsible. There.
I know intellectually that my life is a journey. I have always been committed to growth and learning and self facing. I know that even though I have never exercised my planning muscle, it can still work and grow in strength. I know I can do this now if I chose. I am just caught in a terror over what price I have actually paid for 38 years of no planning.
It feels right now, like concretizing things is important. Daily rituals, anchors throughout my day that keep me feeling a sense of solidity so that I may practice this art of planning in the bigger scheme of things.
This is my Full Moon in Taurus. How is it for you?


Elena Rego at 10:51pm December 10
:) you rock! Thanks for this!
I read the NASA article on the full moon coming up and figured that this certainly had something to do with the energy running through me. But this morning I woke up in a state. My sleep was terrible and I just couldn't get a handle on what was going on. So up to my loft i went and set the space to do a long meditation.
My teacher passed down an elemental mantra meditation that one of her teachers had passed on to her. It clears out the power centers of the body, or the chakras. And I thought it wise to spend a longer period of time then usual doing this meditation. I felt out of sorts and not sure how to tap into what is happening around me.
I did the meditation along with a few other mantra practices that I do and then sat in silence. Wisdom came through, but I'm not sure how to articulate it.
I've been settling down here. Letting the quite and the energetic naturalness of this mountain have its way with recalibrating my being. Subtle shifts are happening with each moment that passes for me here. And it all happens in layers. I sense that the Moons full approach began to stir some stagnant spaces within me. The frustrated energy being evidence of this. Once I finished my Elemental Mantras and cleared some of the energy, a tidal wave of physical anxiety rushed through my body. It was a huge surge. And I sat with it for a good hour and then it subsided. A release.
I'm grateful for the space. It literally feels like I am living in a space carved out of the normal time that I have been living my entire life. And as this space continues to affect my existence, not only am I more senstive to the energy running in and around me, but it is allowing deeper layers of me come up for clearing, for shifts and healing.
I feel very quiet now. In my body and very slow in each activity I engage in. Present. I'm becoming aware that I will need to attend to the subtle much more in order to be present for things like this as they will happen more and more. This is so acutely the work of this winter season.
The Full Moon is tomorrow. I will be posting some words on her tomorrow.
Blessings and Mindfullness.
e