LunarMusings

The Blossoming of Spring

First day of Spring!  I admit that I am still surprised by it even though I have been feeling little twinges of it on my skin, in the air, the scent of melting snow.  This Winter has been a long and transformative one.  It has been marked by huge transitions and quite a lot of time spent indoors meditating, writing and revising the stories.

And now here I am.  I have to admit that in the last few months very little thought has been paid to true blossoming, and I suppose that given the season that was normal.  But now, today, looking around me, reading other blogs and talking to friends... Blossoming...  How will I be blossoming this Spring Season after the work of this Winter past?

I'm scared to say I don't fully know. 

So much seems up in the air, and my faith in choosing which direction I will go in seems a bit weak these days.  I do know that I have been deep in the Earth for long enough and I need to break out.  I need to be out and in the sun, exposed and unfurled.  Unfurled...

So for right now, for today, I am going to make some choices about what will blossom for me in this season.  My intention is to unfurl into these choices and so much more.

~Step out and create a Sacred Sister Circle up here in Idyllwild for myself.
~Finish writing my first issue of a journal and put it out into the world
~Spend at least 3 days a week hiking around this mountain
~Get back on track with and experiment with my 365 Days Project

~Continue working on Sacred Pregnancy project (more on this and the image above soon!)

~Manifest financial abundance on a regular and perpetual basis. 

~Build my savings net for traveling

~Continue diving deeper into my Lakshmi Sadhana

I think that is it for now.  This weekend I will be carving out some time to do a Tarot reading for myself for this Spring Season and sharing with you at Inner Revealings Tarot.  I'm really wanting some clarity for myself with this sense of unknowing I have.

Have a wonderful evening, and thank you all for you warm wishes for health and recovery!  It has meant a lot to me.  I am still a bit behind, but should be caught up with emails by the end of the weekend.

Blessings to you all! 

Spring Equinox Tarot Readings

After the deep earth incubation of Winter, where we hibernate and dream in our most cracked open and raw places, we come to the light... finally that moment where the Sun is in the sky shining just as much as we have night.  Those dream seeds that we went underground with at Winter Solstice are wanting to push through into tender seedlings, pushing out from underground into the glorious light of day.  For many of us, this has seemed like an especially potent Winter, where much came to our attention, many things required letting go, and our self facing left us often times weary to the bone.

We live in rhythm with the cycles of the Moon, the Sun and the Seasonal fluctuation we experience, no matter where we live.  All of it is a metaphor for the journeys of growth our souls take. As we approach the Spring Equinox, we are being faced with the last hooks of resistance within us to shed our old skins and come up to the surface renewed, and intentioned.  There are seeds that we planted intentionally, and seeds that we are just discovering within that want to see the light of day.  This is a delicate time.  These new baby seedlings that want to grow and take deep roots in our lives need nurturing, attention, and protection.

This reading answers the questions:

~ What wants to come to life in your soul and in your life this Spring?
~What last hooks of resistance must you face and work through to let go of in order for these seedlings to blossom in your life?
~What can these seedlings become in your life if you nourish and nurture them?
~How can you nurture these seedlings?

This reading is specific to the Equinox and is intended to be a guidepost for you personal soul journey this Season.  Inner Revealings Tarot Readings are intended for those who have an established practice of self facing and deep self inquiry.  It will provide you with insight and questions that want to be explored by your deepest self in your personal work. 

I will be doing seasonal readings as well as regular readings throughout the year.  You can find more information on Tarot here, as well as my bio and what other goodies are going with my Tarot Blog. 

For your reading, please include your name, date, time and place of birth and an email address I can send your PDF reading to. Also if you want to add anything or any questions to the above list of questions please do.  Any questions regarding how you are feeling at this seasonal change and the things going on in your life will serve to provide you with better details.   My turnaround time is currently 3 days and cost for this reading is $57.

You can click on the paypal link below, or go to Inner Revealings Tarot, and click on the buy now button in the sidebar.

Spring...

Its been a while...

Much has been germinating, incubating, bubbling slowly to the surface, getting ready to peak faces out from under the fertile soil.  I have missed coming here to write and read of our souls journey.  I almost wonder if I am ready? 

I have been diving into creative projects, adding pieces to my store, creating commissioned journals for beautiful souls wanting to document their journey, tending to the garden of my relationship, changing the comforts of my home, dancing, taking pictures, and preparing.

I am feeling like this Spring Season is ushering in a new time, pure beginnings, and a sense of boundlessness that I want to just fall back into in a state of blissful surrender. 

As the days come I will share more of what loveliness is transpiring.  For now...

enjoy the start of Spring my friends!

 

Self Portrait Tuesday: April Fool #4

As the Moon continues Her retreat behind the veil of darkness, I too feel a deepening into those hard to reach places within.  I am finding that my journey past the stories and into the core of truth within, has rattled me a bit.  I have retreated a bit, retracted my connections some, and am grateful to have a sanctuary to be still in. 

Questions have begun to bubble up to the surface:

What do I need?

Where do I need to go?

Do I need to be going anywhere at all?

What if what I need to do is simply to be with what is in front of me?

What do I want?

What truths have I been hiding from?

What do I deserve to give myself?  to allow myself to have/receive?

When will I let go?

These questions have carried with them a certain level of anxiety, but this morning in yoga a space opened for me.  A space big enough to hold them all, and allow me the precious moment of presence and peace I have been needing.  I feel I can go deeper now, without the fear.

I will write more later.

Self Portrait Tuesday: Time #2

It may be hard to tell from the photos, but if you look closely at my side hairline, there is a riot of gray hair trying desperately to be seen in this world.  The truth is that about 40% of my hair is now gray!  Its an interesting thing for me, because I go through moments of wanting to just own my beauty for all that it is and let my hair be itself, and then I quickly banish that thought with a definitive, "I'm not ready!!!!"

I have to share, that I am not officially part of Self Portrait Tuesday, because as I was just coming onto the scene, they began to revamp the site.  But I love the theme so much and find the opportunity to dive deeper in this way so important that I am going to continue playing on the sidelines until they open the web doors again.

With that said, I love the contrast between last weeks entry and this one.  There are moments in life, images in life that seem to slow down time and create a space for me to savor the many rich layers available in a single instant.  Then there are things like my graying hair.  It creates this illusion of a lot of time past, and very little time left and it gives me this sense of anxiety.  Its an overwhelming sense of not being ready to be farther along then I am, not wanting to catch up quite yet, and no no no... really, I haven't been around that long, I have EVERYTHING left to do.  I know that this is totally tied into our cultures view of age and how much I have obviously internalized it, but it also has alot to do with my new found awareness of mortality.

Turning 34 this year was extremely difficult for me.  I was surprised at how hard it was, and really couldn't fully understand what the big deal for me was.  After a few months of being with it, I realized that up until now, I really hadn't grasped how quickly years fly by and that if 34 years could come and go in what feels like a blink of an eye, then the next 34 or 40 will do the same.  It just doesn't feel like enough time all of a sudden. 

Its not really a fear of death itself, but of not having This.  I love my life.  I love Life, and the ups and downs, the learning, evolving, the letting goes that feel so devastating in the moment, but give way to boundless expansion, I love the sky, the sun on my skin, the sea breeze and the fact that there are endless possibilities for experiences that I haven't even begun to imagine.  Death will be fine, crossing over into another existence isn't the issue, its the not having all of this.  I know it doesn't sound like it, but there is a difference there for me. 

All this from gray hair!  Its really alot of gray hair.  Its been making an appearance in ever increasing numbers since I was 19.  I think the healthy evolved thing would be to embrace it, own it, and let it shine for the world to see. 

Not there yet. ;)